Shallow,i never imagined you to be that shallow, my friend you claimed to be diffrent, you claimed to look at things from a diffrent point of view and for some time you seemed to be that, but today all that image you built for yourself in my eyes came crashing down, you have turned out to be like many shallow people. I am not saying that we don't make mistakes, but why portray to be someone you are not?

I do not hate you for what you said, because it's wrong to hate someone for voicing out their feelings, if i hate you now, i become shallow myself, but yes i am hurt by what you said, and it will take some time before i get up and walk with my head held up with pride. It took me years to get over the defect i have, but now you have put me in that spot again. The defect is but a temperory thing, but you have hurt me, and no amount of sorry or explanations is going to change the hurt that i feel. I love you the same my friend, but just give me some time to feel better, i just cannot believe you of all people said it.

Wonder why i am telling all of you this, well i am upset for once after a long long time and i have no one to talk to about it, the person i could talk to is the one who caused me this grief, my family is so far away and there is nothing i can do, but write about my feelings, writing helps, it gets your emotions out and you feel less burdened. So my dear friends, if there is no one to talk to, write, and when you read it later, you will realise how funny you looked. :) And if you can't write doddle, do something constructive not destructive, and the best cure will be to shead a tear, tears are like water they cleanse the soul. You don't have to go to the Ganges ( for my hindu friends) to cleanse the soul, a tear would do what the Ganges would. :)

So Cry if you have to, but remember no grief is big enough for you to take your own life. And death is no reason to grief, it is the beginning of a new beginning. Do not cry at funerals but smile and be happy, because a funeral commemarates the dead, and it is like a celeberation. SO next time when someone you love dies, think of it not as a apinful thing, but as a celebration of life well lived. :)

Time for me to eat, and watch some TV, so take care all of you, and let the tears flow freely. :)

Coffee