Oh where Oh Where

Another bout of depression, to let go is easy, to deal with the emptiness and the feeling of unfulfilment isn't.

Yesterday i was happy, today that loneliness, fills my every core yet again. I ask myself why do i feel this way, don't i have enough on my plate to be happy about, some people haven't got what i have and they're not whining away.

See you, came into my life, turned it upside and left it in a mess. I picked up the pieces and have moved far ahead, to a place you'd never reach me again. I don't ever want our paths meeting again, you're nothing but pure emptiness and nothingness. Yet if you're nothing but an empty shell, why do i feel lonely when i've thrown nothing out of the window?

For so long, i wish there was someone who'd listen to me, pick me up when the chips were down, i have great friends, brilliant students and an even better family, yet there are things i can't share with them, not because they would judge me, not because they will question me, but because i don't want to load them with my burden. They think and care for me enough already.

I have learnt to live on my own, now i fear i'd be alone all my life, and when the winds change their course and when everyone has come and gone, i'll be alone forever. I live on my own, yet i know that i have people i can trust around me, but what happens when they evolve. Evolution and death are the inevitable certanties of life, only their time of arrival is uncertain.

Damn, i am such a manic depressive, i think i had better cut the cord now, before it drowns me, into a sea of emptiness, void and nothingness.

Till the next read, my dear readers, sip on the champagne, cut all cords that bring nothing but emptiness, away , like a friend says, Wake up every morning like it's done on purpose. :)

Mocha Caramel. ( Never going to be Mocha Again.)